Our blessed surprise

If you know me, you know that I am a planner. I like to know what is going to happen next week, the next month...the next day! Well a little over a year ago when I got the word pregnant on my test, my plans were blown out of the water. A thousand thoughts went through my head in a moment, but the main was...this was not in my plan! This is not how I wanted things to go
Fast forward 14 months. Here I am with three kids...and I am surviving. Not only that, but I am learning about God's love for me through my precious Matthew. He is an absolute delight. He is my daily reminder that I am not in control, and that when I am mad because my plan doesn't work out, He has a better more perfect plan. I cannot imagine my life without my precious boy. He has added so much to our life. Here is the thing, I haven't done it on my own. Not for a second. God through the Holy Spirit has guided me through times when all three were crying , when the laundry was getting ready to devour me, the toys were all over the place and the walls were crowding in...He has guided me. I have had to lean on him more and more...and I wouldn't if I didn't have my boy. Thank you God for my blessing, for knowing me better than I know myself, for knowing that I wanted this child even when I didn't think I did, and blessing my life with him!
Matthew Aaron is five months old, 26 in long now and 14 pounds. He is starting cereal, and soon baby food. He is so smiley, and so laid back, he can go anywhere! Unfortunately he has already had two ear infections, so I have a weird feeling that Dr. Hall is going to get to see all three of my kids! Again, he is such a blessing....I love him so much!